Day 5: January 5, 2008- The Cleanest

Day 5: January 5, 2008- The Cleanest

Image by ashley.adcox
Look at me.
Can you tell,
By the way I move and do my hair?
Do you think that it’s me,
Or is it not me?
I don’t even care.
I’m alive, I don’t smell.
I’m the cleanest I have ever been.
…
My stomach hurts now,
And all tied off in lace.
I pray, beg, for anything to hit me in the face.
And this sickness isn’t me.
I pray to fall from grace.
The last thing I see is feeling.
-The Used: "I’m A Fake"

So today was a longer version of yesterday. (or maybe it was shorter, really). I’ve slept about 36 of the last 48 hours…and it still leaves me feeling exhausted. A shower was the most eventful thing of my day.

I slept through going to get my little cousins birthday gift, and then I slept through his 3rd birthday party. I also missed the amazing 48 degree weather we’re experiencing. I’m feeling slightly worn down in every possible way. Bottoming out is not fun…at all. But oh well…things will change eventually.

Maybe tomorrow…

(…and yes- I was clothed when I took this-tank top, you just can’t see it because of how my arms are held lol. nothing controversial here :-p)

…edit…the more I look at this, the more I see the girl from The Ring…and that’s kind of creepy lol